51. wheat thicks

I love being in a newsroom by myself, surrounded by the shadows and silence and latent hum of computers.

I wasn’t alone all night, though. The first half of my shift was spent in the auditory company of Harris Wittels, one of my all-time favorite podcast guests ever. What a brilliant guy.

An NPR memorial called my attention to Wittels’ second appearance on Pete Holmes’ podcast “You Made It Weird.” In it, the writer-comedian recounts thea entire odyssey of his drug use, from being a casual toker to getting hopelessly and desperately strung out on heroin.

The way he tells it is so characteristically, bizarrely hilarious that it’s impossible to not relate with him — even as he gets mixed up in Scientology and robbed multiple times. There are also liberal references to Wheat Thicks, a Harris classic. Gimme that wheat.

Near the end, he reflects on Robin Williams’ death, and it gets spooky and premonitious.

I know I can’t do heroin again, he says, Because I’ll just die.b

It’s devastating to hear. That was four months ago. Doesn’t it feel a little like this generation’s Mitch Hedberg moment? Thinking about that, it finally struck me what made his comedy so unique.

The Jameson Cannibal Affair

Near the end of the 19th century, Europe’s colonial powers were still convinced Africa was a game bird to be carved and shared. Land was raped for resources; people enslaved for labor.  It was grim and deadly, and one of the few frontiers where spoiled aristocrats could still pay to have an adventure.

This is the story of the Jameson Cannibal Affair. 

James Sligo Jameson, heir to the Jameson whiskey fortune, bought his way into the heart of darkness in 1888. His explicit job was as a subcommander in the rear column of a Belgian relief expedition, but he wasn’t much interested in leading, and the unit fell into disarray under his supervision.

Instead, Jameson was darkly fascinated with the customs of the Congo natives, especially their penchant for cannibalism. The macabre eating habits had been widely documented, right down to the gleaming points at the end of the natives’ sharpened teeth. In his own letters, Jameson recounts the common recipe – Wash bodies; Stuff bodies with bananas; Roast bodies. Serve bodies.

But something in Jameson wouldn’t rest. Inside him curiosity widened a black cavity he couldn’t fill with secondhand accounts.

See, Jameson himself had never seen man eat man. And what self-respecting tourist would miss the chance to confirm, with his own eyes, the sordid rumors whispered in parlors by wide-eyed women in corsets, grimly speculated by dapper gents between brandy apertifs?

This is where accounts of the affair dovetail. Some say Jameson asked to see cannibalism first-hand and asked what it would cost. Like it was the toll on the Liberty ferry. In his own accounts, released posthumously by his wife, Jameson says he thought the whole thing was a ruse, a trick the tribe was playing on the foreigner, and he wanted to see the punchline.

What is agreed upon is the price of six handkerchiefs. That is what James Jameson paid to see a 10-year-old girl from a rival village procured, tied to a tree, and stabbed twice in the torso. The cannibals beheaded her, carved her up with practiced efficiency, and took her in parts to the river for washing. The complete mise-en-place.

“The most extraordinary thing,” Jameson wrote, “was that the girl never uttered a sound, nor struggled until she fell. … When I went home I tried to make some small sketches of the scene while still fresh in my memory, not that it is every like to fade from it. No one here seemed to be in the least astonished at it.”

With the whole of the expedition failing spectacularly, word trickled back to civilization. Stomachs and public opinion turned.Jameson became a poster boy for Africa’s capacity to bankrupt a man’s morality.a He died of illness before he was held accountable.

For six handkerchiefs, Jameson got what he paid for; humanity tied, sliced, torn, stuffed and spitted. The devil’s price is always cheapest.

41. first, they came for leno

First, they came for Leno, and I did not speak out — Because Leno sucks.

Then, they came for Conan, and I did not speak out—Because Conan had that job for, like, six seconds.

Then, they came for Pete Holmes, and I did not speak out—Because I think I’m the only one who watched that show.

Then, they came for Colbert, and I did not speak out—Because I was weeping uncontrollably.

Now, they have come for Stewart, and I say nothing—Because I just realized he’s Jewish, and this is an extended Holocaust allusion, and I am embarrassed.

36. brady is immortal

What you’re about to read is a 500-word essay penned after a night out on the town by a close friend and Patriots fan. The conceit regards his lord and savior, Tom Brady. I received it at 6:14 AM — 3:14 AM his time — and it’s one of the loopiest, funniest and sincerest things I’ve ever read. This is why I love sports. 

I’ve been inspired to rewatch the SBXXVIa video. First off, I feel old. My god, look at Brady. Look at belichick. JR Redmond? Who is that? Vrabel still plays for the Pats? This is weird. The offenses are strange and seemingly simplistic. High schools are running the same plays Kurt Warner made famous.b

Here comes the second year QB, 90 seconds left. Even the helmets are weird, Brady looks like a Neanderthal. But you can still see his eyes. Everyone talks about how cool he was during that drive. He’s not even mentioned at the X-Factor. “They’ve got a great kicker.”c

Watch closely. He’s shitting his pants. Two years removed from the Big 10 and now he’s on football’s biggest stage. Of course he’s scared! He’s playing exactly like a second year QB would, taking the safe passes.d He checks down three times in a row. he throws one away, barely outside the tackle box. He makes one amazing downfield pass. He’s aware of the clock, probably the biggest thing that sets him apart from other quarterbacks of his experience. What other first-time starter has the guys to run up and spike it, knowing full well he’s wasting a down?

Brady engineered that drive, no doubt. He set himself on a path to become elite in 80 seconds. He knew he didn’t have to score. Warner needed a TD and got it, but just enough is plenty. Brady just needed enough. He dink and dunked his way to fame before dinking and dunking was the way of the NFL.e He moved the ball like he would with a slot receiver without one.

Brady isn’t a great deep ball passer. When did people begin to think he was?f  QBs are supposed to mature into these passing machines that toss great deep balls and make spectacular throws to move the chains 15, 20 yards at a time. Brady was never that. He moves the ball by completing his passes and letting his team do the rest. Screens and checkdowns all day. The reason they won this year? He dinked and dinkedg his way. With randy moss, he become unstoppable in the record books, but couldn’t win a championship. He couldn’t win without a backfield receiver either.h

Brady is immortal.i He’s top three all-time. Maybe the greatest ever. But not of quarterbacks. He’s a game manager.j He knows exactly what needs to be done and when to do it. He won’t complete huge gainers all the time. He’s not the great deep passer some people think he is. He can make those throws when they count and he completes the easy passes because he knows a lot of small gains can lead to a big return. He’s Chad Pennington crossed with Brett Favre.k He makes the most of the small plays and makes the big ones when he needs to.

In a word, he’s clutch. No other player defines it like he does.l


In all seriousness, this is loving sports. It’s a booze-soaked brain translating honest, raw emotion from the heart as best it can.

And even though I’m teasing him, I’ve done this too. I’ve stayed up late watching replays of the 2010 NBA Finals. I’ve mashed up Deion Sanders highlights with Lauryn Hill deep cuts. And yes, I’ve penned my own embarrassingly long and emotionally stilted essays about my favorite football team. And mine were written sober! And were published! By real news outlets!

The thing is, it’s impossible to rationalize being a sports fan. Bethlehem Shoals once said rooting for one team is like an arranged marriage between two sadists. It doesn’t make sense. It hurts. Fans either see their team win the Super Bowl, or see their team’s season end in a loss or without a postseason. Every year.

And every year we go back and watch more history unfold, knowing full well we will revise it when we’re wiser, drunker and more nostalgic.